I am tired in my soul. For the past 7 years I have been made to feel like a
bad person for believing that God only authored ONE BIBLE, not two or
thirty-nine. Yet, the average church today uses multiple Bible versions,
which confuses everybody. I am tired of being made to feel like a bad guy,
because I believe what the King James Bible teaches, that salvation is by
faith alone, without works (Romans 4:4-6; Ephesians 2:8-9). Yet, Harvest
Baptist Church of Guam since 2014 until present has made me feel like a bad
person, totally ignoring and ostracizing me for all these many years, simply
because I loved them enough to tell the THE TRUTH.
In fact, it is Harvest that is a bad church, not me. I am not the one with the problem, they are! I got saved at age 13 from the incorruptible seed of the King James Bible (1st Peter 1:23), and that is the only Bible I have ever used. I am not confused. I don't search through several different Bible versions to find the truth, I have it in my beloved King James Bible. Harvest's pastors and staff have shunned and ostracized me for the past 7 years, treating me as an unwanted outcast and an enemy, simply because I TOLD THE TRUTH. I told the truth to Harvest's bad pastors that Martin Luther (1483-1546) did not go to Heaven, because he taught the heresy of Baptismal Regeneration his entire life. Hellbound Roman Catholics even cite Martin Luther as proof that you must be water baptized to go to Heaven. Why oh why does Harvest Baptist Church on Guam and their popular Harvest Baptist Academy honor and promote this man as a hero of the Christian faith? But I'm the bad guy, right?
I am stuck at a bad place in my life. My former wife of 18 years abandoned me in 2006 and my life has gone sideways ever since. I have tried to find a Christian wife. I thought I had found a wife at Harvest in 2014, Kris, but she didn't want me. I feel like a fool for keeping after Abby all these years since 2017, when she treats me worse than a stray dog. When someone tramples upon your feelings, love and constant words of affection, that person is not for you. But love is blind as they say, and I simply cannot see beyond my love for her. She is a young woman, and I am having difficulty moving away from Guam for various reasons. My heart has always been at Harvest, since I attended there for one year in 2013-2014, but they couldn't care less about me. Pastor Marty Herron has no idea of the damage that he has done, the pain that he has caused, the people that he has hurt, by rejecting the truth of the Gospel of free grace. He and his successor, Pastor Gary Walton, have blood on their hands for bidding Godspeed to Dr. Steve Pettit, who is a hardcore Calvinist, and an avid supporter of Pastor John MacArthur.
I realize now that it was a mistake to come back to Guam in 2013. I had actually left to move to the United States. I didn't have a plan. I didn't have a church. I didn't have any friends or family to turn to in the states. I was alone and quickly became overwhelmed. I broke down in tears while driving through in Ashville, North Carolina and decided to return to Guam. The one dominating thought in my mind was to go to Harvest Baptist Church of Guam seeking spiritual refuge for my broken life. I did just that. I approached Pastor Herron after church one Sunday night, with tears in my eyes, and shared my broken life, divorce, pain and loss with him. He put his hand on my shoulder and quoted some words from Habakkuk 3:2b that I will never forget, “in wrath remember mercy.” Pastor Herron kindly said, “David, you deserve God's wrath, but He has shown you mercy.” I wept and he prayed for me.
I love Pastor Herron very much, and he did so well at first helping me back onto my feet spiritually. I love the man, truly. But when I returned the favor, as his genuine friend, sharing books and sermons proving that Lordship Salvation is a fraud, and the modern Bible versions are a fraud, and Martin Luther was a fraud, and turning from sins to be saved is not the Gospel, he threw me under the bus and axed me like a turkey on Thanksgiving Day. I hope you can understand how that would devastate me as a human being. I went from having a church family, a woman I was falling in love with who liked me very much, and being happy for the first time in decades, to BEING ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN! I had lost everything! I had lost my friends, my church family, my potential wife, my life as I had known it for the previous year. What did Pastor Herron lose? That's right, absolutely nothing! Do you think God overlooks what he did? If the Word of God be true, Pastor Herron must give account to God for rejecting THE TRUTH that I directly handed to him (Matthew 12:36; Galatians 1:6-9, 3:1-3, 5:4, 6:7; Proverb 24:9-12; Romans 14:10-12; 1st Thessalonians 4:6; Romans 12:19-21).
Do you really think that God (Who is not the Author of confusion - 1st Corinthians 14:33) wanted there to be HUNDREDS of English Bible revisions? If you mention that to a Bob Jones graduate, they'll probably say that they don't support all those Bible versions. In fact, that is what one of Harvest's pastors told me in 2015. Well, it doesn't matter if you support one of them or all of them, because supporting even one of the Westcott and Hort translations (in addition to the King James Bible) means that you now have TWO AUTHORITIES. I disagree with Dr. Peter S. Ruckman (1921-2016) on a few doctrinal issues, but he does an excellent job explaining the problem with having TWO AUTHORITIES, because that necessitates having a THIRD AUTHORITY (which is manmade scholarship) to decide which of the first TWO AUTHORITIES is correct. That is exactly what the serpent did to Eve in Genesis 3:1. When the serpent corrupted God's Word, saying the oppossite of what God had said in Genesis 2:16-17, Eve now had to CHOOSE between God's incorruptible word and the Devil's corruptible word. That enmity still continues today dear friend (Genesis 3:15), battling over which Bible version is really God's Word. Will the real Word of God please stand up?
I do love you all at Harvest Baptist Church. I am like a barking dog in many ways. Once you reach out to me in love, I am all sweet and loving, and I stop barking. That is how I am. A hurting dog barks. All these years Harvest has ignored me in my loneliness and pain. I even broke the ice for Harvest's pastors in 2017. I contact them, showing all humility and respect, but they were cruel and literally told me to go away. If I am correct in all that I have shown them, and preach, then woe unto those men. That includes Harvest's present pastors in 2021. The worst thing you can do when there is a problem is to IGNORE IT, but that is exactly what they are doing. I am not going away. I may move back to the United States, but once I do, I won't have any reason to remove my preaching against Harvest from the internet. They seem to want that. So be it. But I rest my case with God. Romans 3:4, “God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar; as it is written, That thou mightest be justified in thy sayings, and mightest overcome when thou art judged.” Folks, the facts are on my side! Everyone has a right to their own opinion, but no one has a right to their own facts! The fact of the matter is (and you can search the internet to easily confirm this), Martin Luther taught that you must be water baptized to go to Heaven. He taught that in his catechism in 1529, 12 years after he allegedly got saved after reading that “the just shall live by faith” from the Bible in 1517. Don't you see a big problem with that? Not Harvest's pastors, they still insist (even after I showed them this truth) that Mr. Luther is up in Heaven right now!
The problem dear reader is that Neo-evangelicals are shallow. I love my father (1933-2010), but he was a Neo-evangelical. He was a graduate of Moody Bible Institute. Now my father was saved. Some Neo-evangelicals are saved, some are not. It all depends on the extent of their doctrinal corruption and who influenced them. Moody was great in the old days, while Pastor Harry Ironside (1876-1951) was their pastor (1930-1948). But over time Calvinists and Neo-evangelicals took over and changed the ministry, horribly so. Today, Moody publishes John MacArthur's poisonous books! So I am well familiar with Neo-evangelicals. They don't pay attention to the details. My father as a pastor didn't care much about standards. Women wore pants to the Mission. Drinking booze in your personal life was fine. My father hated my preaching against booze (because he drank). He used to tell me to only preach salvation at the Rescue Mission. I respectfully told him it wasn't going to happen. I kept preaching what I believed, and I still preach against booze. I have never drank a drop of booze, never smoked a cigarette and never tried illegal drugs, and I NEVER WILL. Ironically, and hypocritically, Harvest permits women on staff to wear pants, but beer drinking is not allowed. You see, they just make up whatever rules suit them. I am a hypocrite too, because I WOULD marry a woman who wears pants. If I don't, I'll never find a wife! They all wear pants these days. And I wouldn't preach at her for wearing pants. I am easy to get along with, believe it or not. I wish Harvest could know how cool I really am. They've got me all wrong!
I'm not a bad guy, Harvest Baptist Church of Guam is a bad church, and I'm just stuck at a bad place in my life. How can I not call them a “bad church,” when they bid Godspeed to this heretic? I mean, 'com on, is that the Gospel or what? No, it is not dear reader. You don't have to make an attempt to stop the sinning in your life to be saved, nor to prove that you are saved. When I got saved at age 13, my sins weren't an issue. I did know I was a guilty sinner, but that was it. I simply believed the GOOD NEWS of Christ's death, burial and resurrection (1st Corinthians 15:1-6). AFTER I got saved, the indwelling Holy Spirit started to convict me about my sins, and my life did change, but that wasn't proof I was saved. If I had hung around worse friends, God only knows what wicked things I would have done! The only proof that I was saved is the indwelling Holy Spirit. That is what the Epistle of 1st John is all about. 1st John 3:24, “And he that keepeth his commandments dwelleth in him, and he in him. And hereby we know that he abideth in us, by the Spirit which he hath given us.” Isn't that simple? Sure it is. God made everything very simple.
I sure wish me and Harvest Baptist Church of Guam could make peace. I hate all this bickering and fighting, but they are ignoring me, and nothing will change until they step up to plate to bat, as I did three times already. They drove me out of church in 2014. Even though I begged 3 times to come back, since 2017 they have refused to let me even sit in church. They refused to be my friend when I asked. They did this, not me. THEY DREW FIRST BLOOD! In the 1982 movie First Blood, John J. Rambo was right! He didn't do anything wrong. The guy just wanted to eat a meal in town and then move on, but he wasn't allowed to. Likewise, I am right. I didn't do anything wrong to try to help Harvest's pastors see the truth. They could have lovingly thanked me, and none of this would have ever happened, and we could have just agreed to disagree. I have never rejected them, they rejected me!
Harvest is weird. Pastor Herron was giving out study materials by John MacArthur. Pastor Herron gave me permission to pass out Gospel tracts by Pastor Curtis Hutson (1934-1995). That told me that Pastor Herron doesn't see a distinction (or doesn't think it is a problem) between the hardcore Lordship Salvation that Mr. MacArthur preaches, and the solid free grace Gospel that Dr. Hutson preaches. If you understand the differences between what Dr. MacArthur and Dr. Hutson teach, then you know that they are lightyears apart. In fact, they are at enmity one with another doctrinally on salvation! Respectfully, Pastor Herron's indifference on the matter confirms what I said earlier, that Neo-evangelicals don't pay attention to details. Right doctrine matters! I am not the bad guy in all this, although Harvest has tried to make me the bad guy. I love them so much, but I LOVE THE TRUTH more (2nd Thessalonians 2:10).
I love Abby too, but she hates me, and I am feeling stupid for continuing to express feelings for someone who is as cold as ice toward me. What hurts is that for a couple weeks in 2019 Abby waved at me like she was my best friend, and so did my Harvest neighbours. But I was waiting for them to invite me back to church or something, and they did nothing. So I got frustrated, and expressed it in my writings, preaching the truth that I have preached since 2014, and that was the end of that. They've continued to ostracize me since. Abby hasn't waved at me since. That tells me that she follows them, and they have control over her, which is what cults do. I am not being unkind, that is THE TRUTH. Cults control people. Pastor Herron tried to control my opinion. This is not communist China. They don't understand me at Harvest. I have a website ministry for a very good reason... I am a total misfit. I have trouble fitting in with people. I need their help, but they don't understand (or don't care to understand) a guy like me. And so things will never change. Hey, what I have written stays written, just like Pilate said. I'll just continue to be sad and lonely, and Harvest can continue to corrupt families with Steve Pettit's Calvinist bullcrap. I just wish we could all get along, truly.
I know in my heart that I should probably move back to the United States, where I'll be able to find a church family. I really like Pastor Jeff Fugate's church in Lexington, Kentucky. Truthfully, I feel lost in life and don't know where to move. I feel overwhelmed with the whole damn thing. I was considering Fort Wayne, Indiana. No matter where I consider, I don't have peace about moving. But I'm stuck in limbo where I'm at on Guam. My heart is sad and lonely every day. God is my strength. I wouldn't have made it this far without Jesus. Hebrews 12:2, “Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.” Because Jesus is risen, I can face tomorrow. But as Pastor Jack Hyles wisely taught me, I only have to face today right now. The sermon is called: 'Between A Rock And A Hard Place,' which is exactly where I am stuck right now in my life.
I have suffered with constant neck pain since 2004, from an old injury when I was rear-ended by a church bus, while driving for the Lord at First Baptist Church of Hammond, Indiana. I have never regretted driving a bus to bring children and families to church. God will reward me for all my years of pain and suffering. I also fell at work in 2004, which turned out to be a blessing, qualifying me for disability in 2008 when the U.S. Postal Service terminated me for medical reasons. I had major neck surgeries in 2009 and 2010, the second of which made me much worse, leaving me with burning in my nerves. I have been taking better care of myself, lifting light weights, walking, eating better. I ate Vietnamese food today. I lifted some weights. I am fighting to lose weight. But my neck is hurting bad. The weights bother my neck. But if I lay around at home, then energy turns to stress. I went walking earlier and got some sun. So I feel good, while being in neck pain at the same time. I have had eHarmony since 2017, but a woman won't touch me with a 10-foot pole because of my neck, even though I only make brief mention of it. I cannot be dishonest. I think if you want to meet a person, and you live in constant pain, they have a right to know upfront. And so nobody wants me. Harvest doesn't want me. Kris didn't want me. Abby doesn't want me. No one on eHarmony wants me. I am alone in life. Thankfully, Jesus loves misfits, losers and lonely people like me.
My heart is broken. I am confident that someday, Lord willing, I will meet a woman that will be happy she met me, and I will love her with all my heart, and she'll grab me up as fast as I'll grab her up. So far I have been a fool begging for scraps from the table of female snobs who think they are better than me, who follow cult leaders that pervert the Gospel, promote corruptible seed, and ostracize anybody who disagrees with them. I am about as open-minded a person as you'll find, but I am also very opinionated. I am sick and tired of being treated like the bad guy on Guam, when I was the ONLY ONE who did what was right. God is my witness. I told THE TRUTH that the modern Bibles are corrupt, and they sure are. I told THE TRUTH that Martin Luther is not a born-again believer, and he's not. I told THE TRUTH that Lordship Salvation is a perversion of God's free grace, and is certainly is. I told THE TRUTH that Bible repentance for salvation means 'a change of mind,' not 'turning away from a sinful lifestyle.' I spoke truth, which is what a righteous person does. Proverb 12:17, “He that speaketh truth sheweth forth righteousness: but a false witness deceit.” It is the Bob Jones crowd today who are the false witnesses speaking deceit, but I have spoken only THE TRUTH. That is the absolute only reason that I KNOW God is 100% on my side in all of this.
